Called To Go

 As I have begun to tell people that I will be moving to Mexico for 4 months this fall, I have gotten a variety of responses. Some people are concerned about safety. Some people look at me like they don’t really understand it. Some are just plain excited. The ones concerned about safety ask where exactly I will be going. The ones who don’t understand ask why I am going. And the ones who are excited ask what I will be doing. I can understand where all of these responses come from, but I want to share how the Lord has worked in me and brought me to this point.

This has been a long process in which the Lord has used distinct moments in my life to reveal His plan for me. The Lord began preparing me for missions when I was probably eleven or twelve years old. I distinctly remember having a desire to give all my things away and move to the jungle to live simply among the people there and share Christ with them. I didn’t think anything about it at the time, but as I look back, I can see that this was the Lord beginning to instill in me a heart for the nations and a desire to make His glorious name known. When I began taking Spanish classes in high school the Lord softened my heart and gave me a love for hispanic people. I loved practicing Spanish and would get so excited when I saw and heard Hispanics out in public. Fast forward a few years to college. One weekend I was home visiting, and as I was talking with my dad he told me that he thought I was going to be a missionary one day. At the time, I brushed it off even though I was thinking to myself that it was a possibility. Then I went to Ecuador on a mission trip with nursing school. It was my first trip out of the country. I loved the people of Ecuador and felt at home there. I was thousands of miles from home in a foreign place where I was no way near fluent in the language, and yet I felt like I was in my comfort zone - like I had come home. I went to Peru a year and a half later on a mission trip with my church, and the Lord deepened my love for hispanics and my desire to take the Gospel to the nations. Up to this point I recognized that the Lord was working in my heart, giving me a desire to serve cross-culturally but I didn’t really know what it meant. I didn’t know what missions would look like and so I just used that as an excuse to do nothing. Then, when two of the families from my church were commissioned to serve long-term in Ecuador, I felt the Spirit stirring in me and knew that I could no longer sit back and disobey the Lord's call for my life. I felt convicted that I had failed to be obedient in pursuing this and I began accepting the possibility that the Lord was preparing me for missions. Around that time (approximately two years ago), I began a serious relationship with a guy from Central America. We talked about eventually marrying and moving there. I was excited and desired to spend my life doing missions in that context. When the Lord closed that door I felt a moment of identity crisis. I thought this was the plan...it involved missions and seemed to suit me well. But, I realized that even though this wasn’t the plan the Lord had for me, it didn’t mean I couldn’t or shouldn’t continue to pursue missions. So, I met with a member of the global team at my church and over the next months the Lord opened up this opportunity for me to serve alongside missionaries in Oaxaca, Mexico. I am very grateful for this opportunity and feel privileged that the Lord is choosing to use me in this way.

When I think about my motivation for going, several things come to mind. The first is that I serve the one true God who created all things and is worthy of all of our praise and obedience. The people in Mexico are not excluded from this. I desire to take this Good News to them so that one day when I stand in the presence of my Savior there will be Mexicans from Oaxaca standing beside me, singing His praise. The next is that Christ has commanded me to go. Matthew 28:18-20 says, “And Jesus came and said to them, ‘All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age’.” This is a command that requires obedience for all believers. Wherever the Lord has us, He has commanded us to make disciples. Another motivation for me is that the Lord has clearly given me a heart for missions and for hispanics. He is my guide and I will follow where He leads. Isaiah 48:17 says “This is what the Lord says - Your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: ‘I am the Lord your God who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go’.”

So, to all those concerned about safety asking where I will be going: I am going to the nations. I go knowing that this world is dangerous and that I may face hardship, but also knowing that He is worthy of suffering, even to the point of death, and that believers can rejoice in suffering, counting it a privilege to fill up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions for the sake of the church (Colossians 1:24).  I go with confidence that the Lord is on my side: “What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies. Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? As it is written, ‘For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.’ No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:31-39.

To all those who don’t understand and ask why I am going: I go to glorify the Lord because He is worthy of the praise of these people and because He has commanded me to. Romans 10:14-17 says “How then will they call on him whom they have not believed? And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching? And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, ‘How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!’...So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.”

To all those who are excited and ask what I will be doing: I will be making disciples. I will be spending 4 months building relationships with these people and ministering to their needs in order to show them who Christ is. May He work in the hearts of many people so that they will trust in Him. May I live in a way that most effectively makes disciples. And may the Lord be most glorified!